December 18, 2021

Today a few of us got together to celebrate John's birthday. Just 6 of us, all family, at our house. Near the end of the evening, John said a few times 'I'm failing.' I think he really meant 'I'm fading.' That's something he's always said when he's tired. So he was ready to go to bed. Then he said a couple times to me 'Let's go. It's time to go.' I told him we were at home and he could go upstairs and lie down if he was ready. He smiled awkwardly, laughing a little when he realized that we were in our own living room but that he didn't know it. I think this exchanged happened 3 times. It's becoming more and more common for him to say things that illuminate his confusion. I think he used to be better at hiding it, but as his brain fogs he's less able to hide it, and less aware of his need to hide it.