September 19, 2021

About a week ago, when Jordan was taking John to Easter Seals, John refused to get out of the car. He was making her late to class at law school, and she called me in frustration. I tried to cajole him out of the car, which worked for a bit, but before he got into the door at Easter Seals he turned around and got back into the car. It was a really frustrating time. He was busy complaining that he wasn't sure he had the things he needed for the day and was angry that we weren't providing what he needed. He finally got out of the car again and made it through the door. Meanwhile I was arriving at work, late and frustrated. I jumped out of the car and tried to lock the doors, but they wouldn't lock. Until I realized the keys were still in the car and the engine was still running! Thankfully the car is smarter than me and prevented me from creating a fresh new problem for myself. Sheesh! A bit later I realized that I hadn't even parked in my assigned parking spot at work. That wouldn't be such a problem except that we have limited parking and I took an extra spot from someone else. So much for thinking clearly - if at all - when I'm frustrated. Yesterday John went hiking with his brother and one of his sisters and had a really nice time. The weather was wonderful so I was tempted to join them and get a little exercise myself, but opted to snag some valuable alone time instead. It was nice to go about my Saturday morning chores and get a few things done without his repeated questions and accusations. Plus when he has things to do on the weekends he is a much happier person. I'm thankful for every break I get - even when it gives me a little FOMO!